I am so excited to continue this journey or “Self-Discovery and New Vision” as I am working through more inwardly and going even deeper within. I have started my first MKE class in 2017, 2 years ago so this is my third time going through this course. I know that this will be another great experience for my personal growth and master minding experience with whole new addition of amazing people!
Over the last few years, God has been working ever so gently and intimately to rescue me out of the pit. I wrote this reflection on August 4, 2019 at Starbucks before Sunday worship.
—-“My God, thank you for rescuing me out of the pit; the pit of despair, fear, rejection, intimidation, anger, disappointment, discouragement, bitterness, frustration, confusion, self-abuse, self-loathing, deceit, lies, bondage, cover-ups, blame, shame, condemnation, judgment, criticism, sadness, deep sorrow, worthlessness, burdensome, dark hole, aimlessness, and desperation of soul. All the time spent and the energy exhausted in this pit, now I am able to channel toward rebuilding myself and reclaiming my life to fulfill my purpose on this earth for your sake and for others who you love! So my Lord, I ask you to help me to fix my eyes only onto you and you alone, so I can see clearly as you see me and others and hear clearly as you speak into my soul and to love without holding anything back from the outflow of your unending love for me and them! How deep, intense, intimate, powerful, tender, soft, gentle your love is for me, my Jesus! I can truly be safe and rest in your loving arms. Thank you, thank you, thank you, my Lord, my Lover, my Rescuer, my King, my Savior, my Father, my Comforter, my Counselor, my Friend!”
I am so humbled because how God is working so gently and intimately to purge and purify my soul and also forever grateful not to leave me in the state of despair or discouragement but to lead me to the place of “Peace” and “Joy”!
I will be going to attend my last retreat for the year 1 Spiritual Formation course at Moody Bible Institute in Chicago next weekend and I am anticipating another sweet time of encountering my Jesus to show me how much He loves and How much I need Him more and more. Thank you, my Lord, Savior, and King!