This week has been a challenge after being sick for couple days and then being away for 2 and half days to pick up my daughter from school in Chicago. But the most struggle has been with defining my PPNs and DMP accordingly. I have written in my blog last week that I have changed my PPNs to “Liberty” and “Recognition for Creative Expression” instead of “Autonomy” and “True Health”.
I thought that I had wrong PPNs when I was struggling to write my DMP after 10 revisions. After wrestling through going back and forth between these PPNs and rewriting my DMP, I found myself getting frustrated and disappointed. But I decided to tell myself that it is a process of change not a failure.
I always enjoyed driving long distance with my husband because we usually have a great time of sharing and discussing lots of things that are important in our lives. So it was not an exception this time during our drive to Chicago. We both shared how we’ve been doing recently and It was very encouraging mutually. I asked my husband for feedback on my PPNs and DMP. He knows me very well after being married for almost 29 years and he was able to help me process why I chose my PPNs and how important they are to me.
I was able to finally get a clearer picture of my PPNs and why I picked “Autonomy” and “True Health” and then I was able to readjust focus on my DMP accordingly.
I thought I was confused about my PPNs and DMP while I was struggling to define what they were but I realized that it was the process of focusing.
Hanaal said in Master Key, part 12, “If you have ever looked through the viewfinder of a camera, you found that when the object was not in focus, the impression was indistinct and possibly blurred, but when the proper focus was obtained the picture was clear and distinct. Unless you can concentrate upon the object which you have in view, you will have but a hazy, indifferent, vague, indistinct and blurred outline of your ideal and the results will be in accordance with your mental picture.”
This process of defining, redefining and clarifying PPNs and DMP was like adjusting the lens on the camera to find the clearer focus. That’s it! This is what I have been struggling through “Focus”.
My mind was struggling through and pushing through this adjusting process because of my subby was still trying to dominate my thought process slowing me down on moving forward. But I am determined to persist to succeed. My new self is beckoning me for amazing new venture so I take one step at a time to meet new me.
I persist until I succeed!