Just like many Master Key Experience Master Mind Alliance (MKMMA) participants, It was quite a challenge all through last week and then came Sunday webinar “Hero’s Journey”. We were all wondering what this webinar was about and then came a big surprise, BAM! Yes, it was a tipping moment for many of us including me.
We have gone through 17 weeks of reading Og Mandino’s The Greatest Salesman in the World , Blue Printer Builder, our DMP (Definite Major Purpose), Press Release, Service cards, plan of action cards, Guy/Gal in the Mirror, flashing stacks of index cards of accomplishments, gratitude, positive memories and then Franklin makeover to list them. And here we are in this journey and a very important juncture.
I felt very uneasy all through Sunday and even through the webinar. There were so many points that stood out and came at me but I was in confusion and turmoil inside. I couldn’t pin point what it was until I processed and reflected Monday morning during my regular exercise time. I usually go to Good Life first thing in the morning to do my exercise but during this time I also do all my readings, so both physical and mental exercise. It all started to come together.
Mark J asked us to add one index card on top of the stacks of index cards and write “What am I pretending not to know?” Initially on Sunday when I heard this question, nothing came to my mind but then I realized that I was pretending not to know that I was pitying myself and was full of pride. This came so strong and I had to process through.
Mark and Davene also mentioned that we build our sense of self with the “Associated Memories” and we need to let go this self. What a truth, I have been kept going back and forth, reminiscing all my memories of childhood and all the wrongs done to me, all the discouragement, disappointment, hurts, “my wounded self’. I was having a pity party for my “old self” and was not willing to let go and stay there.
But then I recalled what Mark shared about his “funeral for old self”. What a powerful and symbolic way of making this definite turn around. So I decided to apply this to myself and do away with my “old self” for good. Since I was going to Cedars for my monthly personal retreat, it was perfect timing.
I came to Cedars last night and spend more time reflecting on this process so I started to write down all the memories and events related to my “Associated Memories =old self”. I didn’t have a furnace to burn these papers like Mark did but I decided to rip them off into small pieces and throw them away in the garbage can.
I left the papers on the desk and fell asleep and then first thing in the morning I did my final “Good Bye to my old self”. It was very sobering process as I was remembering and letting go one at a time and to release completely. Immediately following, I started to claim “My New Self” who is the nature’s great miracle and who is “whole, perfect, strong, powerful, harmonious, happy, calm, peaceful, confident and loving.”
At the end of this process, I picked up the papers and ripped them off into small pieces and threw them in the garbage can and said “Bye, Be Gone my old self”. When I walked back into the room, there was a mirror right by the entrance so I stared at myself in the mirror and started to talk to “My New Self”. “Ok, you and I, let’s do this, we can do it, Hero’s Journey, I am ready” and I stood tall in front of the mirror staring at “My New Self”.
This whole process reminded me the passage in the Bible, 2 Corinthians 5:17.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!”
I knew this passage and memorized many times and now this is really sinking in. Yes, I became a believer and claimed Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior who died on the cross and took all my sins (my Old Self) away. But did I really live my life reflecting my belief that I was no longer living for my old self but I am NEW? Yes, there were times I did but over many years of life journey, I somehow built my sense of self with “Associated Memories” whether they were legitimate or not, that’s what was the result of internal struggle of not letting go of these “Associated Memories” but holding onto them.
Here and now, I have forsaken this Old Self and started to build my sense of self with “Truth Only” no longer with “Associated Memory”. How do I do this? Yes, it is a journey and it is not an easy journey. It requires efforts and practice but I am so thankful to God for MKMMA where I have been training myself with necessary tools and methods through all the exercises we’ve been doing over last 17 weeks.
So I continue on this Hero’s Journey with my shoulder wide open and standing tall with the confidence that I can do this because “I am nature’s greatest miracle”!
Thank you, GOD! Thank you, Mark J, Fabulous Davene, MKMMA, and my tribe buddies for helping me to come this far in the journey! I am so excited!