Wow, this week’s reading has been very inspiring from so many perspective. I have been on self-discovery journey for last few months even before I joined the Master Key Master Mind Alliance and God has shown me the areas that I need to let go and rebuild. It’s been a slow progression of embracing the need for me to become autonomous and become healthier “me”. Old blue print is still trying to influence my thoughts and actions but it’s great to see the changes happening over last few weeks as I catch myself reflecting and reacting in a different way.
The idea of mental house cleaning really hit me as I reflected back what happened to our family last year. The situation that we went through was described as “bomb was thrown and blew up” and it was exactly that picture as our family fell apart physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. It was very painful process as we picked ourselves up and tried to put pieces together. It was too overwhelming to process and we couldn’t help anyone but barely carried ourselves. Each one of us had to figure out slowly trying to understand what happened and what’s the meaning in all this chaos. Actually what we thought our life was about and what we were supposed to do had to be completely shifted and changed.
Haanel 5.22 “The great fact is, that the source of all life and all power is from within. Persons, circumstances and events may suggest need and opportunities, but the insight, strength and power to answer these needs will be found within.”
We were serving and helping as we saw the needs and opportunities that persons and circumstances and events presented but not with “the insight, strength and power that were found within.” No wonder, we felt burn out, hurt, misunderstood, taken advantage of, disappointed and discouraged. Each one of us are in this journey of re-defining who we are and re-discovering what is our passion and dream. It is not an easy process as we are still struggling to embrace ourselves and one another but there is a definite hope that we are all heading the same direction and walking the same journey in different pace.
A few months ago, my 16 year old son described our situation this way. “Our family was like a pretty house and looked perfect but it was weak. So it was shattered and completely broken when it was shaken but we are in the process of rebuilding as a stronger house”. What a perception and insight he had! That’s exactly what’s happening with every individual in our family now that we are cleaning all the debris and throwing away broken and shattered pieces (mental house cleaning). So we can rebuild much stronger house that will withstand any challenges come our way, we will be able to stand tall and shine our lights from within (whatever our passion and dreams are).
I am so excited for this journey that I am on and also for our family.