What a lovely reading it is, Scroll II! I am so thrilled to start this journey of equipping myself with such a powerful and greatest weapon of “LOVE”.
I Corinthians 13:13 “And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love”.
My PPNs are Autonomy and True Health. I am so excited to see myself detaching from unnecessary obligations and duties that I used to be tied down to. Definitely this process is giving me much healthier state of mind and even physically I feel so much better, “True Health” developing.
There is a book that Gary Chapman wrote titled ” 5 Love Languages”. They are “Words, Gifts, Touch, Service, Time”. My love language is “Service”. I love serving people wherever and whenever there are needs, I am there. That’s how I shared my love to my family, co-workers, people at church etc. But over period of time, I noticed myself building up disappointment, discouragement, bitterness, and resentment toward people for lack of response and lack of appreciation. Wow, what a messed up mental house I’ve built! Thank God that He started to get my attention and slowed me down from “Doing” to focus on “Being” over last few months.
It’s been a long and hard journey of undoing my bad habits of serving and helping “just because”, either out of my own expectation or of others’ expectation. I was in a mess. BUT NO MORE! As I am going through this MKEMMA daily practice, it is so refreshing and freeing to be able to tell myself “No, I don’t have to do this or that” and finding myself not feeling guilty or burdensome at all. I am starting to discern and focus on what is truly needed and what is my portion and what is not my portion. This is definitely working toward one of my PPNs, Autonomy.
I want to focus on sharpening my weapon of LOVE through this scroll II and all the other activities to obtain healthy and balanced state of dynamic flow of giving and receiving of this amazing LOVE” to all.